Wednesday 1st April 1009

Oh my god! Guess what?! My cat died!!!!!!

April Fool!

Yeah, I know.. I didn't find it funny either.

So today was alright. Spent lunch with Hannah, Clara, Kath and Sarah. We ate chocolate, so all was very good! I love chocolate! It's so good for that time of the month when you just need cheering up.

Freddie and Graham were laughing at me today in maths, right in front of me. I don't think I could have have cared much less. It still kind of bugged me though. Hannah and Megan didn't seem to notice though, and if they did, well, they did a good job of hiding it.

I really don't know what Kath sees in Freddie. He's such a douche-bag it's unreal! No one likes him! Not even Hannah likes him anymore, and she's a really tolerant person! She's amazing that girl, abso-blimmin'-lutely amazing. I love spending time with her. She's just so great to be around! I've just realised that she was on my mind a lot today. Well, like I said to Sassy earlier, first love dies hard!

It's rather amusing how one person can turn your entire world upside down. All the time she was helping me through my depression, not for one minute did she suspect it was partly because of her. She would die if she knew, if I were to tell her now. She still doesn't even know I ever liked her. All because of that stupid rumour. Boys, who needs 'em?

Urgh, saying that reminded me all about the rumours that Ben sent flying around last December, about me and Sammy. He's such an arse. Completely ruined our friendship. Well, he was part of the reason it got ruined. The rest was my fault, but I don't like to think about that. I keep wondering to myself how different life would be if she had have been gay... there's no point though. It's the past, and nothing can change the past. Not even wishful thinking.

I need to finish up now, I have a sneaky suspicion my dad's going to come and "check on me". My computer was supposedly off over an hour ago, so I don't feel like being on any worse terms with my parents than I am already.

So I'll be seeing you. Well... not literally, but you get what I mean!

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