Tuesday 31st March 2009

I figured I might as well start from today, so here I go. Just to warn you, all names in this Blog are going to be altered. Just in case...

Confused as hell today. Still got all those thoughts flying round my head. I love Lex, I know I do, but my feelings for Sammy are coming back. Just like I had feelings for the other two. Except these don't seem to be a passing phase. The really annoying thing is probably the fact that she's straight. Lex loves me back, and Sammy doesn't, so I'm stuck here in the middle, trying to figure out exactly what.. or rather, who, I want.

I was talking to Sammy earlier, saying how much I wish things could go back to how they were before, around October. Before all of this started. Before the rumours. Before anything! We were talking about being little kids again, how they're so carefree, completely unaware of the crap we have to deal with as we grow up. Some people more than others, of course, but even people with the most boring lives have shit happen to them, don't they?

Spent lunch with Hannah, Clara, Megan and Sarah. It was good, made a change from spending it with Violet and Natalie 's crew. Mrs Dorotheou made Me and Megan take our books to her at lunch, and we were meant to stay for the duration, but she loves us so she let us leave early. Not sure she'll love me quite as much when she finds out I haven't done either of the assessments that were due in. Woopsie.

I think that's enough for today. I'm really tired, but sleep is out of the question. No rest for the wicked, eh?

Much love xx