I absolutely adore this video! His voice is so pure, and his lyrics are so true! I don't think I could put it better myself. This is exactly the situation I'm in with Sammy! Apart from me being a girl :)

Saw her as we were leaving chool today. I called out her name, and she turned around, and I waved. And she waved back. And I felt all fuzzy inside. I didn't want that to happen. But it did.

It's like there's a tornado in my mind. So confusing! Maybe I love them all. Could that happen. Could I be in love with all of them? Or maybe I'm in love with none of them. That's also a possibility. Isn't it? Maybe I'm just deluded, so lonely that I have to try and tell myself I love all of these people when actually... I don't. Oh god, now I'm really getting deep! *Shut up Tara!*

So basically, I'm confused, but I'm sure I've made that very clear. Couldn't get Sammy out of my head today, but then all of a sudden I was thinking about Hannah. It's crazy, the feelings I've got for so many different people. And not "different" in a way to exaggerate the number of people, rather "different" as in unique. One's crazy, one's absolutely stunning and so on and so forth.

And so I have no idea what to do. I'm shitting myself over situations some of my friends are in at the moment, one in particular. But the thing is, there's nothing I can do to help her. I'm always the one who helps people, and I feel so lost when I can't.

I heard a saying somewhere a few weeks ago, I can't remember where or who from, but I remember the saying very clearly:

You must help yourself before you even try to help others.

It's true, unfortunately. Some people are so reliant on me but I'm so caught up in my own problems, I can't help them!

I might be back later, to write some more. But right now, I'm so caught up in everything, I can hardly keep my thought stream on this.

So I'll see you later, maybe. Take care.... oh who am I kidding. I'm not writing to anyone in particular. But if anyone reads this, thanks, for putting up with me :)

Lovage xx